Xanga-January 26, 2006

So what's been going on with me...
After I saw Brokeback Mountain and we went to dinner, I went home. And I got pulled over. It seems that despite the fact that it was after 10pm, I didn't seem to think it was necessacary to use headlights. Anyway, the cop had to chase me down. I saw him pull behind me (there was a car between us) with his lights on on Business Loop 70 but then the lights went off. Then I saw them again after I crossed Broadway on Providence and I pulled over. There wasn't one cop and car but two cops and two cars! Anyway, they let me go with a warning and I am a dumb girl.
I start back at the dairy farm on the 6th. I am going to work 6-12 Monday through Friday. We'll work something out as far as weekends. I am still going to work at Hy-Vee at night. I guess working my ass off for money beats sleeping all the time or doing nothing at all.
Last night, I went home after work and got into bed instead of showering because I knew Joe was going to call me. I thought it seemed a little cold and I checked my pilot light. It was out. No big deal, after all I am the gas fairy. I tried to light it and it didn't work. I didn't think I even saw the flame to the hot water heater, so I went into the kitchen and tried to light a burner on my stove. No luck there either. My gas was off! Joe convinced me to call the gas company and I did. They sent someone over (at 1am!) and infact, my gas had been turned off for some strange reason.The gas man was actually a gas woman who reminded me of my mother.

Attempt #2-
Okay, when I first started reading this book, I thought that everyone should read it. Everyone including-anthropologists, sociologists, vet med people, animal science people, animal rights people, vegetarians, vegans and meat eaters. I'd recommend animals reading it too if they could read and had opposable thumbs with which to hold the book. However, after the first interesting chapter, I suddenly didn't understand what the hell this guy was talking about. So I guess my recommendation is now read chapters 1 and 8 through 11. That's your reading assignment. But here are the cliff notes anyway.
Some definitions:
domesticity-social, economic and intellectual characteristics of communities that consider daily contact with domestic animals (but not pets) normal condition
postdomesticity-people live far from domestic animals producing depended upon goods but have close relationships with pets; humans have psychological feelings of guilt and disgust when thinking about industrial processes of which animals are turned into products and go market. These thoughts are rarely thought of.
elective vegetarianism-conscious choice (usual contrary to family tradition) to avoid some or all meats
Notes:
-domestic societies take for granted the killing of animals; there is little guilt
-in post domestic societies animal goods are hard to give up but the means to get them are revolting
-there was a change after World War II- increasing distance from farm, farm animals
              -decrease in prominence of even milkman and butcher
-domestic societies-bestiality-wrong but acknowledged
        -primarily a male vice
-postdomestic societies-fantasies of women with animals while bestiality involving men-highly frowned upon
        -this has been attributed to shift in view of masturbation, pornography-more highly accepted
        -also because children are not exposed to natural animal mating as they would be in a farm setting
-fantasies of blood/violence in a postdomestic society
      -children not exposed to animal slaughter--->blood is exotic
-increase in economic position leads to increase in meat consumption
-expansion of meat consumption and elective vegetarianism both come from same postdomestic feature---the push to maximize productivity (of meat animals) and minimize consumer cost (of meat)
      -'inhumane' raising practices (considered revolting because of animal husbandry disconnect) makes meat affordable and thus expands market
      -descriptions of animal production methods are ignored because meat comes from the grocery store
               -bloody reality is hidden or chosen to be ignored
-blood sports (pitting animals against each other or against humans) have always fascinated humans
      -while mostly abolished, these scenes in nature still fascinate
-in a postdomestic society-hunting is seen as excessive, cruel but contradictory (those opposing hunting often still eat meat)
       -belief that animals in wild have right to life
             -guilt about domestic animals that have lost right (to life)
-decrease in contact with productive animals-leads to desire to humanize animals
       -in early 20th century through 1950s-humanized farm animals were incorporated into romantic visions
       -eventually humanized wild animals replaced domestic
       -in '90s-animals being depicted were completely humanized (think about cartoons and the changes in them)
-humans went from being an animal to worshipping animals to hunting to domestication to post domestication
-donkey went from being worshipped (for fertility) to being connected with Satan to 'dumbass' of the barn yard
-originally-donkey pronounced to rhyme with monkey
-donkey's ears and tail-homologues of penis
       -dunce cap-originated in France-cap with donkey ears and sigh saying 'ass'
                 -conical shape--phallic
-anything involving a donkey is probably shaming
-duldul-donkey/mule in Muslim religion, slang in Persian for penis (literally 'to dangle'), same association with origin of word dildo

[EDIT-Originally published to Blogger on January 28, 2011.]

Xanga-January 23, 2006

Okay-
I'm pissed. I just finished writing a huge thing about this book I read and ended it with the word dildo, so I know now you're all interested. But, Xanga lost it! And I am faced with retyping it. But its late and I am tired so maybe some other time. Be patient. Maybe tomorrow...

[EDIT-Originally published to Blogger on January 23, 2011.]

Xanga-January 10, 2006

And now first for some quotes from 'My Name is Earl'-a very good TV show, a very close second only to Rockstar: INXS.
'Its okay. We all have our fears. I'm afraid of snakes and rape.'
'I think I got one in its McNugget.'
'There you go. Now if you do it to the other hand, I'm going to take you to my church to watch all the old ladies cry.'
I went to St. Joe this weekend after having been in DeSoto before that. The Green Girl Two drove well despite a bad cataylic converter. I need to get that fixed. Anyway, Friday night, after a certain point I only remember snippets of. I drank way, way too much. I smoked some. (Shut up you critics!) I talked to Scott and Joe's sister, Gabbi. At one point, it was decided that I had a southern accent. Whatever. Also at one point, I declared, at the realization that Joe, Justin and Dave were all standing around me-'My three favorite guys are here! All you might just get lucky tonight!' We won't go into details after that....
Saturday, Joe and I drove around town and went to Krug park. There we fed the ducks bread and crackers. I ate some too because they were good for my hangover. I secretly like the geese better than the ducks. Joe was also treated to an interpretive dance of the seasons on the stage. We saw the buffalo, deer and longhorns. We feed bread against a sign's warning to the latter two. That night we went on a double date with Justin and Erica capped off by hanging out with Justin while Erica slept.
Sunday, I went home. :(
While there---sleeping above the funeral home-I had a dream about a funeral. I also had a dream about getting into a car accident in the post office parking lot in DeSoto with a guy that looked roughly like Phil Stendek. There was a Reel Big Fish sound track to that dream. When I went out to my car to leave, it smelled like a dead animal. Its a good thing I bought that Ataris air freshener.
So my car accident is still up in the air. The lawyer is going to call me today. Hopefully, everything is settled before my car payment is due so I don't have to pay yet another payment on a totaled car. I don't even know where my car is!
For Christmas, I got The Ataris CD End is Forever. More like End is sucky. Seriously, can you tell that Kris Roe is no good with relationships. Ugh. He's no Marty Casey...
Oh, wait, there's Marty Casey himself!
 I couldn't mention it without having a picture, too! Come on, people.

[EDIT-Originally published to Blogger on January 11, 2011.]

January 3rd, 2006-Xanga

I like very bad music. Perhaps the music in of itself is not bad but the reputation and other people's views of it are bad. I'm not sure what exactly I am trying to get across but suffice it to say that I like Silverstein. And Story of the Year. And Upside. And secretly, The Famed. So basically, anything that may have incoherent screaming along with bad lyrics. I can't help who I am. And you can't stop me.
I had a good weekend with Joe visiting. We went to The Ranch on New Year's Eve. Everyone got along and I loved it! Next weekend, St. Joe!