MySpace-June 16, 2007-Re: My Best Friend's Wedding-An Explaination/Conclusion

[EDIT-For the sake of the continuing tale, I should post this one early.-LP 6/14/11]
I've said before that the internet would end up being the end of us. Its so open for interpretation. Unfortunately, I feel as if the internet did not do my feelings justice in the last blog.
The last blog wasn't written to be mean or vindictive. It wasn't written to express jealousy or anger. It was written more to express my deep regret and how upset that I was regarding the loss of a friendship. I was being open and honest and felt that no explanation was really needed. Regrettably, I was mistaken so I am taking this time to make an explanation.
I went off to college. It was the right thing for me to do. I needed it more than I could ever imagined. I know that I really am a better person for it too.
But in the three and a half years that I was in Columbia initially, in undergrad, there were countless letters and phone calls to my best friend, Kari. There were invitations to come to Columbia and meet my new friends. So many of my letters went unanswered and my all of my invitations, to some to the most important times of my life, went unreceived. And finally, I was tired of putting out more effort than I received back. It was a painful thing to do, but to me, my friendship was ended.
I've been accused of referring only to things that happened two years ago. Admittedly this is true. BUT how am I to know any different when that's all I know, when that's the last time that I heard from my friend. I don't feel that a real friendship, such as I had with Kari, can go on for two years without someone extending friendship back to the other. I feel as if I did my part. I tried to make my friendship last but sometimes after you put in all of the work and get nothing in return, its just as easy to let it die.
I regret that I had to learn of one of the happiest moments in Kari's life by being nosey. I regret that the internet doesn't convey my feelings of sadness better than what I can write. So I feel that my friendship is done. I wish you all the best, Kari, you know I truly do.

[EDIT-Originally published to Blogger on June 14, 2011]