TMI

So this blog is going to get a little personal...very personal perhaps.
Prepare for TMI.

Two years ago (or there about), I stopped taking birth control pills. I figured that Joe and I were now married, I would be turning 30 in six months and that I wouldn't get pregnant right away anyway so let's stop them and then at our leisure, I could get pregnant.

Now, I'm 31 and still not pregnant. Actually, in the time that I have not been on birth control, I have had ONE period without medication. ONE!! I've have like four or five on medications (progesterone). Its very frustrating.
So two weeks ago, I went to the OB/GYN (actually nurse practitioner) and she said that she could refer me to a specialist if needed. Or I could see an OB/GYN in the office but it would probably be a few months...actually, never mind, it could be in five days. So five days, I went and saw the doctor. She ordered me a bunch of blood tests to be taken on a particular day of my period, ordered me an ultrasound and plans on ordering me an x-ray of my uterus with contrast.
I decided it would probably be a good idea too to tell my boss that I was going to try to get pregnant and as part of that, was going to need to go to the doctor since it wasn't as easy as getting drunk and getting knocked up. (However, I haven't fully tried that method. Maybe I should. LOL) My boss was shocked. That's the easiest way to describe it. It was like I had never mentioned starting a family to her or every in general AND it was like having a family was an absurd step for someone in my position. She started to quiz me about my plans for working-would I still do emergencies? Large animal? Apparently, she learned too late with the last vet that wanted to start a family. I totally was like, 'yeah, I plan on working'. Granted as I told her, it might be absurd to expect me to pull a calf at 8 or 9 months pregnant but I understand that part of my job is actually working it. I then mentioned that I was going to have to go for some testing and call the insurance coverage. To this my boss, laughed and told me good luck. Great, thanks for the insurance you picked out for us. And then also, the other associate is worried that she's going to get screwed over if I have a baby. Sorry that my life plans don't make things easier for you...
Anyway, I called the insurance company to check out if these tests were covered. Well, that was easier said than done. I gave her the codes and she said it was covered. Turns out that all of my fertility testing is covered. My ultrasound however while being covered has a $1500 deductible. So I need to see how much an ultrasound costs because if its not too much (I'm thinking about $300 is my budget.) I'm going to obviously pay for it out of pocket. I need to actually find out how much the deductible for the various bloodwork is. Also if some of the random screening tests (cystic fibrosis and rubella) are covered. I don't understand insurance.
I ended up calling the hospital and I found out how much and ultrasound costs---$877 plus the fees for the radiologist to read it. While initially, I was going to cancel it, the hospital said I could set up a payment plan so we decided to go ahead. I still have to do some sorting out for insurance. (Its so very boring.)
I went for my ultrasound-pelvic and transvaginal on Wednesday. It was though and quick. Not 100% painless but okay. I watched the pelvic but couldn't see the screen from the transvaginal. I learned I know that I know absolutely nothing about ultrasounds. Though I did learn that ultrasound of the uterus and ovaries are surprising fluid filled? I don't know. I did know that my uterus falls forward (probably positional due to my bladder size) and that my left ovary sits way up high. The ovaries should have black fluid filled specks (follicles I assume from what they would look like in animals) but not mine. I guess I have to wait for the ultrasound to be read by the radiologist.

 Joe's son will likely have to have open heart surgery this summer. They found a defect in his heart on a ultrasound though that's not what they were looking for. Its apparently pretty serious though I'm not sure what it is. I don't know if this changes how Joe feels about having kids. It doesn't really change it for me. I want a baby. My mom isn't being super supportive. She just keeps telling me that it wouldn't be the end of the world if I didn't get pregnant. Isn't it a little early to be so pessimistic? When Joe and I had initially talked about starting a family we talked about doing genetic testing because of some of the problems his son has but it was quickly tabled because of my disinterest and the arguments that it initiated. The fact of the matter is that I clinically and scientifically know that if I found that once of us had a problem that we could even potentially pass on, should we? NO! But the part of me that wants to have a family and wants to have a child with my husband that I dearly love and wants to be a mother says it wouldn't matter. Obviously, if I found out during my pregnancy that my child would never live though birth or infancy (maybe) I might consider otherwise about having it but for the most part, I would love any baby that I am given.

Speaking of insurance, because of some previous legal issues, we were being denied coverage on our cars. I sent Joe down to talk to the insurance agent and as part of it, we can get insurance but because we still owed on my Mercury (about $11000 when I finally looked it up) the insurance was going to be...prepare for it...over $13000!! We ended up getting a loan from a bank to pay for the loan on the car freeing us from a crazy high insurance payment to one that's only really high. (About twice what we pay now. Or maybe about the same, I honestly am not really sure what we pay. Fail.)

Work has a lot of drama going on right now. The simplest thing is that HP is going to be hired back to work part time. Also that we are going to go to late nights (7pm) four nights a week. This would give the vet working that night the morning off. Sweet! However, all of this is really just a rumor but probably most likely true. I just wish that 1) everything would become clear, 2) that I could have some input on some occasions and decisions and 3) that everything will be fair for myself and the techs.

I've had some exciting veterinary stuff going on. I did a C-section on a goat. Despite the generally poor prognosis of the dam during C-sections due to anesthesia, this goat did great. The kid (one giant doeling) was dead but the goat lived so I'm considering this a win! I saw a camel baby recently. It was really cute.