2015

I apologize for the lack of posts. Things haven't been going exactly according to plan. There's lots of drama regarding my job but that's all I'll get into. (Faithful readers may not that one blog post has been deleted. I sort of wish I had kept it up or at least figured out how to save it unpublished.)

Ignoring the work drama, there is always mama/baby drama and house drama.

Let's start with the fact that our house is falling down around us.
Our refrigerator goes through spells where its suspiciously quiet. Then we worry. Then it starts humming along again like nothing ever happened.
Then the well pump which is constantly an issue. Earlier this fall, it started doing this thing that it does on occasion where it kicks on every ten minutes. Normally, you can hear it kick on after the toilet has been flushed, water ran, showers taken. You know when water had been used. So when Joe came home from work I told him about it and normally we pay the well drilling company $95 to come out drain the pump and recharge it. Joe said that he had seen it done enough times that he felt that he could do it. Well, it didn't work. And it didn't work when he bought a small air compressor. And we didn't have water.
So the well drilling guys come out and were like, hmmm...yeah, your well is broken at the well and needs to be dug up. So they dug it up and we had water again. Unfortunately, it was brown. If you ran it long enough, it stopped being brown and started smelling like a pool. There was laundry washed and soup made with this brown water. And great big freakouts had. Then the basement flooded. Well, it happened once before and we figured this time was because they disturbed the foundation with their digging since it was right next to the house and it was raining pretty hard. I cleaned up and moved along. The water was more consistently water color now (i.e. clear). And the basement flooded again. Actually, I think it flooded like three times before I caught the problem-the water softener. When all the dirt had backflowed into the water softener it clogged some of the stuff up and water was literally flowing over the top. Joe bypassed the water softener and all was well...or so we thought. I happened downstairs one more recent afternoon and found a flood. I started to investigate and there was a pipe coming out from the wall behind the well pump that was flowing water. It was about six inches out from the wall and about 1/2" diameter. I sat a bucket under it, cleaned up the mess but quickly realized that the bucket (a five gallon bucket) was filling in just under 15 minutes. So in a stroke of genius, I zip tied a gallon bag in which I had inserted and zip tied a garden hose around the pipe. The garden hose then fed to a drain. Problem solved. Joe refined my attempt with actual hosing but overall it was a good plan. Now today, I go downstairs and find that its leaking around the pipe. I might have stuffed a dishcloth in there to hopefully slow flooding until at least my husband comes home.
I think those are all the major disasters going on with the house.
But it doesn't matter because in 2015, WE ARE BUYING A HOUSE OF OUR OWN! I know that saying it as many times as I have will likely severely jinx it but Joe and I plan on making a move closer to places of employment and settling down. I'll never feel 100% ready to make the plunge (and financially am uncertain if we would be able to) but know that we just need to do it. We want a farm. And once I have a farm, I'm opening a bakery. Probably just custom cakes and desserts and not like something that someone has to work at but still a bakery. I love to bake and think that its time that I offer my baking skills out to the public.

So since seeing the reproductive endocrinologist this fall, we've been playing around with medications and doing a lot of bloodwork to see if I am ovulating. The short answer is that I am not. In fact my progesterone is non-existent. Like less than a man's according to a google search I performed. But the rest of my bloodwork is normal. I'm not pre-diabetic, I don't have insulin resistance, my thyroid is normal. Luckily, on January 1st, my insurance changed to something much better and we were no longer playing the insurance company's game of 'she needs to ovulate before we'll allow additional testing but we won't cover the meds without preauthorization'. So in very short order (which was exceptionally good timing!) I was scheduled for a saline infusion ultrasound and a femvue. Now I was warned that these proceedures would be uncomfortable but they did not prepare me for them as much as I would have liked.
Prepare for TMI!
I was stripped from the waist down and told to wait. Then of course your feet go up and then the speculum is introduced. I was told I have a very movable cervix. Did I mention that this is a transvaginal ultrasound? So they feed a catheter through your cervix and infuse 30ml of saline. Its not a lot but enough to make you very uncomfortable. Like you really, really need to pee. Once that's complete, they push air through the catheter with the idea that the bubbles will run up your ovaducts/fallopian tubes. THIS IS EXCRUCIATING! I know I was making some serious uncomfortable face and groaning. The nurse asked if she could get me some water. Luckily though, everything is open and there is no reason for me not to get pregnant other than I'm not ovulating. I do have a little fibroid but it isn't a problem. Then at my insistence they pulled blood to check out my adrenal glands. The plan is to now continue to try medications and ultimately go to injections if needed. While on the next higher dose of medication (which I'm not looking forward to as the low dose made me so dizzy that driving would have been hard), I need to have my follicles checked which means more ultrasounds! Sadly, I'll have to wait till at least March for this as I have no insurance until then. Fingers crossed that I don't get hurt!

So that's pretty much what's going on. 2015 is going to be our bitch. We're going to buy a farm, get pregnant and overall hopefully it will be better than 2014, which really sucked.