I've been thinking about dying alot lately. Well, honestly, I do this rather often. And its not really about where you go when you die, is there a god, a better place, etc, but more the question of 'If I died in some terrible, senseless tragedy [such as being hit by a drunk driver or shot], what would people say about me?'
Would what people say vary depending on who they are-close friends, old friends, new friends, classmates, professors, Joe, family, etc... ? Or is the projection that I put out of myself pretty much the same to everyone? When asked about what kind of person I am would they use general terms such as friendly, smart, funny, nice, etc? How specific could they get? If general terms are used, is that who I am?
What about my likes? Do people know enough of me in general to say-she was dedicated to being a vet, she loved dairy cows and Shetland ponies, she always spoke kindly of others (lies!), she loved her boyfriend and dog and Teddy Kellerman (the rabbit not the person).
I guess this question is less about dying and what people would say and more about how I see myself and how I hope others do. How do I see myself? Smart, funny, generally nice and friendly, crazy, fun. And my likes-dairy cows, ponies, vet school (I guess), Joe, my dog (when she doesn't destroy brand new toys). I think this is the part now where you respond with how you view me in the comments section.
In other news, I really am conflicted about if I am ready to go to back to school or not. On one hand I spend way too much time lying on my couch with my dog watching bad TV, on the other school is hard and scary. Tell that to the new applicants interviewing!
Apparently, Schurz Hall is no longer the home of the pre-vet floor. I find that devastating. But you'd really only understand if you were a two year veteran of the Bingham Projects (specifically the Schurz ghetto).
[EDIT-Originally published to Blogger on January 5, 2011.]
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