I hate pathology.
Its not that I hate cutting up dead animals. In fact, with the exception of the really, really dead and thus the really really smelly and rotten, I actually like it. I like finding things that I know. I like lesions and finding the cause of death.
However, I hate that I get stuck doing soemthing such as opening up joints and then realize that I hate doing it. SO I go to removing organs. And realize I hate that. SO I go to slicing up the organs and realize that I hate that too. That's all there is. So essentially, I hate all of it.
But my real issue with cutting up the organs is when they are the consistancy of jelly, its hard to cut them up. You need a sharp knife. However, our knives aren't really all that sharp. SO go sharpen them. Well, they haven't really shown us how, just a vague discription of how. And I feel as if I asked how, they would just yell at me. It seems that obviously the answer for us not knowing how to do something is to yell at us for it. I try to sharpen the knife but then I still have to slice a centimeter thick slice of a jelly like organ with a half dull knife for histopathology. WITHOUT crushing the organ down. I really can't do it. It bothers me terribly too.
Add in the fact that I hate feeling like I don't do anything. Sometimes there's upwards of six people working on a single animal. Its okay when its a large animal like a cow and then really only four or so are cutting on the body. But I feel like I don't want to be cut and I feel like I don't want to cut off my friend's arm either so I stand back. It looks like I'm not doing anything. And sometimes I get yelled at for it. (Yelling used loosely.)
[EDIT-Originally published to Blogger on March 19, 2011.]
Its not that I hate cutting up dead animals. In fact, with the exception of the really, really dead and thus the really really smelly and rotten, I actually like it. I like finding things that I know. I like lesions and finding the cause of death.
However, I hate that I get stuck doing soemthing such as opening up joints and then realize that I hate doing it. SO I go to removing organs. And realize I hate that. SO I go to slicing up the organs and realize that I hate that too. That's all there is. So essentially, I hate all of it.
But my real issue with cutting up the organs is when they are the consistancy of jelly, its hard to cut them up. You need a sharp knife. However, our knives aren't really all that sharp. SO go sharpen them. Well, they haven't really shown us how, just a vague discription of how. And I feel as if I asked how, they would just yell at me. It seems that obviously the answer for us not knowing how to do something is to yell at us for it. I try to sharpen the knife but then I still have to slice a centimeter thick slice of a jelly like organ with a half dull knife for histopathology. WITHOUT crushing the organ down. I really can't do it. It bothers me terribly too.
Add in the fact that I hate feeling like I don't do anything. Sometimes there's upwards of six people working on a single animal. Its okay when its a large animal like a cow and then really only four or so are cutting on the body. But I feel like I don't want to be cut and I feel like I don't want to cut off my friend's arm either so I stand back. It looks like I'm not doing anything. And sometimes I get yelled at for it. (Yelling used loosely.)
[EDIT-Originally published to Blogger on March 19, 2011.]
Hi my dear friend, When I was searching I hate pathology in the web, I saw your blog.. Well I hate Pathology too..:))
ReplyDeleteI am Assoc Proff of Pathology Department.. But I will be retired on this november..You ll ask me why.. Because I hate pathology..:))
All best wishes..